Ok, so I admit that I do this thing where I build ‘tomorrow’ up like it’s going to be this fabulous no muss, no fuss kind of day. Like it will somehow be the day
Ok, so I admit that I do this thing where I build ‘tomorrow’ up like it’s going to be this fabulous no muss, no fuss kind of day. Like it will somehow be the day to right all of the wrongs of the days before it. But, then, aren’t I really setting it up just to watch it all crash and burn? Why I continue do this to myself is beyond me. I’ve been doing it for so long now that I think I didn’t even realize the kind of disappointment I end up setting up for myself.
I mean, I can be hopeful- beyond hopeful sometimes. I swear there are times when the thought crosses my mind that I could wake up and this could all be gone. Like it’s all been a bad dream or something. Wishful thinking, I know!
The reality of it is that ‘tomorrow’ will probably be the same, or real close to the same as yesterday and today, which in my world is not typically good news. And, experience shows that when I struggle, I have a tendency to want to ignore the bad days.
Maybe the problem is that I need to stop putting ‘tomorrow’ up on a pedestal, pretending like it’s going to be so great. Maybe I need to be more realistic with my thoughts?
With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts.Eleanor Roosevelt
Maybe? And, then I remember something that is very important in all of this. I really dolove to think about ‘tomorrow’. ‘Tomorrow’ is new and full of possibilities. It contains all of the successes that I am working so hard to achieve today.
‘Tomorrow’ could end up being a lower pain day, or even one where my symptoms aren’t creeping up on me all day. Then all of that hoping and dreaming about it being a better day was all worth it, even if it’s just for that one day. It may not be perfect, but it’s something! I would call it a victory!
We all walk in the dark and each of us must learn to turn on his or her own light.Earl Nightingale
I will go to bed tonight remembering that ‘tomorrow’ could be the yesterday that I was hoping for.