The best way out is always through. Robert Frost I haven’t written in a while…I haven’t had the courage to sit down and let my emotions run wild again. I am feeling too much lately.
The best way out is always through.Robert Frost
I haven’t written in a while…I haven’t had the courage to sit down and let my emotions run wild again. I am feeling too much lately. My overwhelming anxiety has taken over and I can no longer fight it on my own. I feel like a fool in this body with this mind.
These anxiety fueled feelings are keeping me from doing the things that I am still able to do, mostly it’s keeping from doing things I enjoy. Add with that the amount I’ve already lost due to being chronically ill, and I feel like it must be a cruel joke, right? I decided it can’t stay this way.
I’m to the point now where I tell myself something daily, “You have to live your life, Sierra, not just survive it.” I’d heard it before and it made sense, but I think it means something different to me now. I think I finally realized that I hadn’t really been living my life. I mean really living it. Not with these chronic illnesses, and not with all of these uncertainties around every corner. I froze waiting for things to improve, but they didn’t.
I am slowly starting to realize where things may have gone wrong and what I might be able to do to correct them. I can’t have it all, but I can certainly maximize my strengths. I don’t want to let fear of the next flare up, or just an increase in my other symptoms keep me from trying new things or from venturing past where I’ve already been. I don’t want to look back and realize that I wasted everything because I couldn’t accept my truth. I want to explore all the possibilities within these capabilities.
The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.Eleanor Roosevelt