I’m usually a fairly positive person, but I think given the circumstances it’s understandable that I’ve shifted into seeing nothing but negativity around every corner. It’s the same agitation day after day, with no real
I’m usually a fairly positive person, but I think given the circumstances it’s understandable that I’ve shifted into seeing nothing but negativity around every corner. It’s the same agitation day after day, with no real end in sight. Normally, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but this time I am not sure there is a light, or that I am even in a tunnel. I feel so lost.
Have you ever faced something so impactful in your life that you just don’t see yourself on the other side of it? That’s where I am at right now. It’s completely terrible, and, quite frankly, I have no idea where to go from here, or what to do next.
Things are becoming all too real which just makes me want to run in the opposite direction of everything. I feel betrayed by my own body and mind, and am beyond frustrated by its lack of truth in this situation. It’s like a bad game of hide and seek, and I no longer wish to play.
Is it Me?
I have been fighting so hard against these battles that I didn’t realize how much more difficult I am making all of this on myself. I’m constantly fighting and never really allowing myself to rest. I don’t give myself a break for anything less than what I think I should be capable of.
This is where positive thinking can really make a difference. You’ve got to find a way to look at the bright side of the situation, any situation, even if there doesn’t seem to be one. Find the silver lining that exists somewhere, or be consumed by the pain.
I am searching for the silver lining in this battle, but right now, I can only see the damage from the storm, not the beauty that comes from the rebuilding and rebirth after the destruction. Healing seems light years away and as I’ve stated before, I am not a patient person.
You either get bitter or you get better. It’s that simple. You either take what has been dealt to you and allow it to make you a better person, or you allow it to tear you down. The choice does not belong to fate, it belongs to you.Josh Shipp